The year is almost over and it's gone by so fast, I'm slowly starting the process of entering the master's program and that'll be here and done with before you know it. It's crazy feeling four years ago felt like the other week. So much has happened and so many people have made things better or worse during that time. The undergrad show's just a few days away and it gave me time to reflect how some people have been a huge influence. Most good, some a bit lukewarm. Though it's nice to know the director said I was one of his best undergrad painters. Put some hot coals in the grad student's ass. I consider it an act of flattery to be the object of envy with people in your feild, so long as they don't sabatoge my work.

All of us are getting ready for the show, and it's been hell and back for my colleagues. I treat it like everything else, and since I'm nearly reclusive providing recent work for the show is no problem. My coleagues, however, loathe loosing sleep and devoting more time in their craft. I used to edit their artists statements and got to see how really lukewarm they are with it. I don't like assuming shit, but I get the impression they're waiting for something to pop out as they're trying to find themselves artistically. You can't wait for shit like that. Search a bit and when it comes let it consume you.

Writing thse statements are frankly a giant pain in the ass, I hate doing them too and try not to sound like some new york fag wannabe minimalist. In the whole undergrad department there are very few who truley devote their soul into their stuff and it shows so much. You see their stuff evolve and change as tme passes and new and old ideas wash up like an ocean in their cavases. An older aquantence does jewelry and spent so much time on it she wore bandages on her fingers and had chronic carpel tunnel syndrome.

It sounds fucked to let your work take its toll on you like that, but isn't that the point? No person, no accident, no romance, nothing outside of your work can destroy you. You are in charge of that and you get to do that with what you love. People love that shit. They ADORE a fatalist artist like that. There's an allure with artists who are riddled with personal issues and act "outside the norm" ( if there's ever one in the first place). It's sexy, they're more passionate, they'll hang on to things more, and those who desire them see it as "oh they're so talented I could save them a little before they go." Most wealthy men would fuck a 10/10 artist who's totally looney tune but paints like a god if they could have a chance.The work doesn't even have to be good, if their additude or "i don't give a fuck" vibe is picked up on people will eat that shit up and call you a brave young'un.

There was an artist in school a long time ago who nearly hung themselves in tyhe studio behind the painting room, I never ssaw their work and thankfully the staff and director were very supportive of her. I've always wondered what she did though. What ever happened to her..

With that done.............

The shady bigheads and the yawning bighead has been added in the store. Keep an eye out on RUBBERNECK store for a christmas sale coming up! You'll get a code like the last salw and this time you'll get 25% off your order. The sale will start after Thanksgiving and will end at December 13th. The discount code will show up on the site and I'll make a notice when it's active.

With that being said you should check out the game a friend is making. It looks really good right now and you can vote for it on steam greenlight too here.

P.S. the invites they made for me and my colleague's show looks pretty nifty too. Anyone around the area is more than welcome to show up because why the hell not.

Hope you all have a good rest of the week. :)