The weird thing about certain dreams is that when you want to scream and be in control, it's just not possible. It's like an invisible hand and other faceless beings strangling beating you until you wake up shaking. There should be a term for the combination of white noise and screaming children in dreams.
Also whoever said you can't read words in dreams was a fucking liar.
It felt like just a few months ago that I went to Germany and did what I felt had to be done. This year everyone went early, but it's just so expensive doing that travel. Even the director was going to be there and give his special classes. It just wasn't feasable. With all things considered the new job I started wouldn't allow such travel.
Oh yea I quit my job at the ice cream store months ago and through a colleague started teaching students at the studio by a bunch of districts. It mays much better, and my evaluation starts next month. I know I'll probably stick around that palce for another year or so since their teacher for the satellite locations left, A lot of these kids come from single mom homes, full time nurses, and generally low income and it's just sweet to see my students improve with their art and reading/writing comprehension. I'd love more hours but we'll see my progress come next month.
It's important to note that you should always expect the worse, but do whatever you can out of love and passion for who/what you love. Having those depressive episodes have decreased dramatically, and it's expensive to maintain them. Frugality stomps out bullshit like that. Sometimes the emerge and the detail for that are agitated my booze or other things that would make this sound liek the manic depressive cun'ts suicide manifesto.
One thing is certain, things have not changed with how I feel about the person I'm with. To put it like a melodramatic bitch. You know how surreal it is knowing someone so precious to you for almost 10 years with a history of people coming and going like a revolving door using you? Sometimes it takes some talkign through to remind yourself to not be a victim of your own paranoia. The first step is achknowledging you have a problem and actually doing shit about it.
As I'm writing this next month I'm getting my master's degree in fine art and working on my teacher's certification. i was supposed to graduate in May, but due to some infortunate circumstances with a terrible professor it cost extra money to finish the last class to get the damn degree. The new job pays better, funds have been a wee bit tight and other shit hitting the fan at house that inquired more bills. I don't mind helping financially, but when you have members who have acess to a lot of money and brag about having a rich significant other it gets a wee bit grating. I made a post about it on my instagram here. I originally wanted to raise up a grand to take care of a few things. If things go okay I'm leaving next month on a trip and not sure for how long.
I got a pile of rejection letter from publishers and galleries pretty big and owe someone $2,500 they lent me to finish off paying the bachelors degree to get my transcripts. I wanted to pay them off faster so basically everything I have on my instagram and newgrounds accounts are for sale. Hell if you want prints of something let me know I'll get it for ya. The ultimate goal is to raise $3,500 to take care of another bill, shots for a cat my students rescued, and some other things besides paying off that person.
Considering everything and things that are happening I started a patreon account after years of knocking the shit out of that website. While I'm trying to pay off a few things and submitting letters for galleries and publishers a little extra would be amazing. I tried the best I can to make the rewards sound resonable.
With September on its way it's been almsot a year since bringing back MADNESS webcomic. It's almsot over the current chapter has 30 pages left, and the epilogue is pretty short. probably under 20 pages. it was never a long story, and I'm just happy to have some closure with the thing. I added that SCULPTOR character from cooljaw for fun just cause i liked the design of that character. That comic man, it hods a special place in the last 7 years. I'll link it over it's worth checking out and the other work. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/547415
I've looked at that old ass ABBY comic and messed with finishing it up, I had help with that years ago by celx-requin. Been too busy to finish that maybe it'll be finished. I'm working on other projects like the nest video me and SpencerXavier are working on. The last two videos we did have been fun, and I think you all will love the next one coming up. THE CHERUB BROTHERS is still going, once madness is finished I'll bring up the update schedule. I have a ton of chapters already inked up and just pacing in case work gets in the way. I pitched it to a few guys and to no avail, we'll fingure shit out.
Shit has a weird way of working out. And even then it's never the way you expected.
But again, EVERYTHING I HAVE IS FOR SALE! the storenvy changes an extra dollar for purchases so if paypal or whatever works I'll take it just gimmie a message!
For all the time I spent here, in philly, and everywhere else thanks again for all the support. It always means a lot. this fuckign website still means a lot.